_______________YOUR LIFE_________________
[*] They call me: yinnin
[*] Also: ah ning, nin, sno, aly, alyssa
[*] Sex: Female
[*] Birthday: 28 feb

________________RIGHT NOW_______________
[*] Feeling: dead bored
[*] Listening : LeAnn Rimes-How Do I (lol, it's on light n easy)
[*] Doing: sharing my boredness with kst peeps n the cyber world
[*] Talking to: not talking
[*] Craving: jpa
[*] Thinking of: how kst peeps are gonna kill me for blog spamming
[*] Hating: my weight

__________________LOVE___________________
[*] Love: tom cavanaugh, yellow card lead singer, milo ventimiglia
[*] First love: hehe, shhhh
[*] Love or lust?: Love
[*] True or false: In between

____________MISCELLANEOUS _____________
[*] Can you swim: Slowly
[*] Whats your most embarrassing moment: when I say something n everyone keeps quiet
[*] What are you scared of: ghosts
[*] What is your greatest accomplishment: never satisfied with wat I get
[*] Do you like tomatoes: yea!
[*] How many TVs in the house: not a single one
[*] How many telephones: 2 mobiles, one fixed

______________YOUR LOOKS______________
[*] Hair color: black but sometimes a bit reddish under the sun
[*] Eye color: black
[*] Height: around 5 foot 2
[*] Do u wear contacts or glasses: glasses
[*] Do u have any piercings: they healed

______________JUST LATELY_______________
[*] How are you today: bored
[*] What pants are you wearing: leotard shorts
[*] What shirt are you wearing right now: oversized black tee-reads GA Blue
[*] What does your hair look like at the moment: tied back in a good ponytail
[*] What song are u listening to right now: Los Lonely Boys-donno wat name
[*] Last person you met: mommy
[*] Last conversation: in person-mommy; online-lilo
[*] Last Dream you can remember: my sister having a say in court over child custody n me crying coz I wasn allowed to decide who I can live with
[*] What time is it : 6.24pm

____________MORE ABOUT YOU____________
[*] What are the last four digits of your cellnumber: 8897
[*] If u were a crayon, what color would yoube: any shade of blue
[*] What's the stupidest thing u ever did: stayed in Sin Min
[*] Where do you shop the most: for clothes-parkson; for books-MPH, Popular
[*] How many kids do you want to have: none
[*] Shampoo: Rejoice-rich
[*] Do you have your own cellphone line: yes
[*] Have you ever broken/sprained/fractured abone: sprained my left arm, couldve been a nerve, no idea
[*] Who do you dream about: cute guys ;)
[*] Who do you tell your dreams to: anyone who would listen
[*] Who's the loudest friend you have: P-3 n Bic (nicknames given for protection of privacy)
[*] Who's the quietest friend: hmm, they all talk after becoming frenz

_____________HAVE YOU EVER____________
[*] Wanted to kill someone: Hell yea
[*] Broken the law: yea, but was never caught
[*] Tried to kill yourself: yea, the latest wound still bleeds
[*] Made yourself cry to get out of trouble: I don need to make myself cry, I jus cry becoz it's painful to be alive

Today, lilo n I wen window shopping. I saw a few things that I would love to have, but I managed to restrain myself from buying them.

But, I would like to list out the materialistic items on my wish list, if I get JPA... hehe

1. the green peasant skirt RM 39.90
2. the white sandals RM 35.99
3. the red BG top RM 24.95
4. 2 more tops... no idea which tho RM 60.00
5. one oversized Tee RM 30.00
6. a new watch RM 30.00
7. mayb a new back pack RM 60.00
8. a dress RM 150.00

total: RM 430.84

okeylah, so far so much...
Thank you for reading my wish list. If I don get JPA n u happen to have a lot of money, pls buy me any of the items above. Or get me a new guitar. Heh. Thats all lar...

Announcement of a new post in The World of Newhopes

Please take note that Mr. Albert Khor has added a post into his blog. Please take a look and drop your rightful comments! The story#9 is a long one. The link is as follows :

www.new-hopes.blogspot.com

This is a human brain-generated message. No signature is therefore required.

1.Name?
yinnin

2. How old are you?
17

3. Do you have any nicknames?
alyssa jennifer avens, Sno Wing, Sno, Swi_g, Swgion, Snwig, nightcrawler, Kalexiz

4. When was your first love?
hmm, first love ar, must the guy be my official bf first?

5. First passionate kiss?
*blush* never kiss nobody yet

6. How tall are you?
around 5 foot 2

7. Sour, spicy or sweet?
nano nano

8. What would u do when you are free?
these days? eat, online chatting, play stupid online games, worry bout my future

9. Obsession?
my BOBO- it's a tattered purple pillow that i can't live without

10. Do you club?
nope... don think i'll like it unless someone bothers to hang with me all the while

11. What are your favorite magazines?
national geo has pretty pics

12. Are you a drinker?
no... still haven grown to like alchohol

13. How much money will you bring when you are out?
depends on how much i can get from my mom

14. Car, diamond or money?
money... then i can hoard all three

15. What phone are you using now?
nokia 3100, cheapest colored screen mobile, i think

16. Coffeebean or starbucks?
Both are expensive

17. Where do you stay?
leaving sg petani

18. What is your favorite food?
anything good lar

19. Chocolate, Sweets or cake?
koko

20. Can your ears move?
yea, hehe

21. Do you dye your hair?
nope. it's black, my fave color

22. What languages do you speak?
English, Mandarin, lousy malay, a mix of hokkien n teochew

23. How many phones in your house?
1 fixed phone. 2 mobiles

24. How many toilets?
2

25. When you are doing your business in the toilet what would you do?
sms ppl

26. Do you swim?
slowly

27. Do you gamble?
yeah! on new years

28. What is your favourite sport?
shopping, definitely

29. Love, techno or classical?
love when i'm studying something that requires memorizing, bio or sejarah. classical guitar sounds good

30. What is your favourite drink?
pineapple juice, lime juice, lemon juice, Jus Tea

31. What is your temper?
it comes quick n leaves quick

32. What kind of person are you?
i ask myself that everyday

33. What would you wear when you go to bed?
my oversized black tees n shorts

34. What is the 1st thing to do when you wake up?
for the past 6 months, eat in front of the computer

35. Do you eat breakfast?
i count my first meal of the day as breakfast

36. Favourite tv shows?
Gilmore Girls, ED, Friends, Sex and the City

37. Who do you want to meet?
anyone who is nice to me

38. Read the bible?
nope

39. Where do you like to go?
wherever the wind blows

40. California or New York?
both sounds good

41. When is your birthday?
28 feb

42. Do you buy branded goods?
during sales

43. How many hours do you spend talking on the phone?
never more than an hour

44. If a guy or a lady would like to get to know you as a friend, would you give your number?
depends on how well i know him/her

45. Do you watch romantic movies?
anything funny goes

46. Do u watch Filipino movies?
Nope.

The need of As in my case

Today is a public holiday in Malaysia, so I didn't go to school.
Sundays are public holiday in Malaysia too.
Yesterday was Wesak Day, another public holiday in Malaysia, and unluckily [should be luckily, ngek ngek] it was on Sunday, two public holidays in a day, hence today is another holiday for replacement.

Finish my opening, comes the content, why I said I need to get more A in my SPM?
Few weeks ago, I filled in a form attached with few documents to apply a "reward" for getting "good" result in SPM, it's offered by the templer near my house.
Yesterday, Wesak Day, also the day the templer announced and gave away the 'reward'. However, I was not in the list. There were only 5 rewards for SPM.
The best was 11 A1;
The second was 9A1;
The third (my standard 4-6 classmate who was also a monitor) was 8A1, 1A2;
The fourth (one of my best friend now, also standard 4-6's classmate, form 1-5's classmate) was 8A1, 3A2;
The fifth (my standard 6 classmate who is younger than us one year old) was 7A1, 4A2.

My result... not as good as theirs, just 6A1, 4A2, 1B3. Good? Don't think it's really good. Because of the existence of B, I failed to get the 'reward' offered by Hong Leong Bank and also this templer's.
Hong Leong Bank just offered to those get straight As, I ... fail to get it.
To many people (in my school also), my result is very good indeed, but this result in many popular school, it's just a normal result. I deserved to get this result as I didn't put much effort in it. However, I'm regret that I fail to get those 'reward's a.k.a $$. I'm regret also because I break my record for not getting full As in my important exam. (please don't think that I'm trying to boast, sorry to those get worse result, I'm not purposely say that)

If I was able to get those 'reward', I would have get about RM 800 totally.

Another bad thing happened yesterday, I slipped and fell down when I WALKED (not running) on the slippery floor in my house. The floor was slippery because the maid had just mopped the floor and I didn't know it...As a result, there is a big 'pretty' bruise on my right knee now.

My experience in KMPP

Day One

It rained lightly when I first arrived at the college. After registering, I was given my room number. Much to my dismay, my room is situated at the block Al-Razi , the block farthest away from the academic area and office. To make it worst , its on the second floor!!... I was the first one to enter the room and got a shock when I discovered that the bed, cabinet and tables were so …. “antique” I would say as we have to nurture a spirit of loving our college and standing up for it anytime, anywhere including in this bloggie haha . Well, spent a few hours cleaning and putting everything to place. Then, we had the first ceramah which lasted until 11.30pm. After that, we went back to “urus diri” before lights were turned off at 12am. I couldn’t sleep that night, my mind was sub-conscious the whole night and damn, the room was so hot and humid.

Day Two

Woke up at 5am and attended the daily 6am moral lesson. It was conducted by facilitators which consist of seniors from the previous batch. Basically what we did was splitting ourselves into groups and work on assignments based on three topics. We are expected to make a presentation on the evening sessions for three days, each day with a different topic. The topics were:

Campus Romance
Self-Esteem – Do’s and Don’ts from various aspects in College
Study Skills

Then, we went to our respective LDK [Latihan Dalam Kumpulan] in the morning to meet up with our mentor. Had an ice-breaking session when we have to memorize everyone’s name in the group [30 of them!!] But I managed to anyway. Met a friend from a school nearby through the weirdest form of self-introduction:

A-me, B-my friend

B : Where are you from?
A : Hi , I am from Sitiawan, Perak.
B : I know you. You’re the smartest guy in ACS Sitiawan right?
A : [shocked and speechless] Errr….
B : Peter Tok right ? You’re quite famous in my school.
A : Yes , I am Peter Tok , and where are you from? [Embarassed bcos I don’t know him]

Sno, let me tayang saat ok ? :P

And the conversation went on , I find a friendly character in him , definitely the one to be sought after if I am to encounter any problems or “whatsoever” [my mentor’s favourite word]. My mentor is a very open malay lady and she’s really nice.

In the evening, we were informed to gather at the field in our sports attire. Initially I thought it was the aerobic exercise my senior mentioned a few weeks ago but when I went there they told us what we’re going to do : merentas desa. I was like WHAT THE…. But things weren’t that bad , some of us including me declined the opportunity to win prizes in the real tournament to be held on Thursday so we practically walked through the whole course and managed to irk the facis and the students who had finished the race waiting for us to arrive. HAHA

Bedtime as usual. Before that during Maghrib prayers session , we had the Moral lesson when the first batch of groups present their works… Pretty interesting I would say , one of the groups did a sketch when two of them hid under the table , got busted and expelled.

Day Three and Day Four

Moral , LDK , Merentas Desa , Moral , Sleep. Dead boring and tiring.

These two days were when I started to hate the lifestyle in KMPP . But my seniors was quick to console us that the weeks after orientation would be better. Well I hope so.

Day Five

More relaxed day because merentas desa is over and the malays had to perform their prayers in KMPP surau. During LDK , we were brought by our co-mentor to the various places in our school. We have the KMPP lake , 4 cafeterias , extensive sports facilities , gorgeous lecture halls , school-classrooms-like tutorial classes , and the spacious library. Didn’t have time to explore thoroughly because the time allocated for the session was only one hour. Then , I went to purchase my bus ticket and happily anticipating Day Six when I woke up , had breakfast , packed all my old clothes into a bag and set off.

Day Six

Took the bus from KMPP to Butterworth Station. Met with 10 other friends from the same district , don’t even know them before unless for my 2 classmates. And imagine how embarassed I am when I realized that one of the Chinese girl who are in my practicum group , is from a nearby school and her house is only abt 5 km away. We met at the bus station and Sno , I wont tell you her name.

Overall

Still to early to be sure whether I could adapt to the lifestyle in matriks or not but so far so good . Nevertheless , still hoping for JPA and not feeling like going back to KMPP tomoro. Sobs.



P/S : Pardon my crude English and grammatical mistakes , don’t want waste time , want to save some for my beauty sleep before going back to “hell prison”…. Hehe.

Thank You

Most of us have been brought up to be well-mannered and to say "Thank You" whenever necessary. The words come out from our mouth so naturally and spontaneously that sometimes we ourselves do not realise that the two-word-phrase has been spoken.

Usually, I would say "Thanks" when someone pass me something, no matter how small the object is.

Today, as I'd told Patrick and sno, a traffic police wrote me a summon. After much arguments which proved to be failed self-defence, the traffic police handed me my summon. As usual, I felt like saying "Thank You" but this time I swallowed the words back in. I wonder what would it mean should I utter those words after being given a summon.

Anyway, now I would like to thank the traffic police for the great experience I had with him.

Dear Uncle Police:

Thanks for giving me a big shock when you signalled for me to pull over at the side of the road when I strongly believed that I had done nothing wrong. Thanks for giving me an opportunity to practise and improve my self-defending verbal skills (although I still failed to convince you that you should give me a second chance considering I'm a student). Thanks for drawing all the attentions of the public to me when they drove past us. Thanks for reminding me that ensuring the road tax hasn't expired is the responsibility of the car user. Thanks for spoiling my mood for the whole day and depriving me of my appetite (so that I can keep myself slim). And a million thanks for the whole new experience in my process of stepping into the adult world where I will have to handle all things by myself.



So long KST gang. I hope you guys can keep thinking positively and look on the brighter side of the world, albeit this is often easier said than done. I don't manage to do this all the time also. Just try your best.

[song playing: One of the tracks in The Sound Of Music] So long, farewell, it's time to say goodbye...

A Jot By A Sot

Why is KST special?

I have been in KST for 2 months ++. Many friends have been pestering me when they saw me chatting with these "bunch of humans". I told them it's our online gang. Then they will continue, "What is so exceptional about this gang?" I have two versions of answers. My short version will be: "The gang is special because of its people". The long version is this :

a) Cheng Yin Nin @ sno - This gal is getting so jumpy because of her results and had since been applying for many scholarships. Although her results hade been negative this far, she will never give up and currently in a battle with lolilo for the best "One-liner to plead JPA". On the personality, she is quite expressive and of course, very bold, unlike some male character in the group. A character who matches her the most is Hermione in Harry Potter IMO.

b) Peter Tok Seah King @ Handsome @ sotong - This medic fanatic will never stop craving about his future in medicine. He may not seem kind and decent mouth-wise, but on the overall, he is of a friendly nature and I dare say that he won't fall into Satan's trap although he will face one in his KMPP sweet KMPP. He maybe great on the net, but NOT on the phone. A character who matches him the most is Gilderoy Lockhart in Harry Potter IMHO (no one can possibly deny this).

c) Elaine Cheah Yee Leng @ hedwigelaine - She, by far, is the most optimistic gal I have ever seen. She is very down-2-earth and her moderate personality helped her a lot in this. I don't think she is someone who goes after power and money, but rather after those simple things in life that can yet make people very happy from the soul. A character who matches her the most is Lok Yee in Invisible Journey OR Ginny Weasley in Harry Potter IMO.

d) Jesse Chok Yin Ling @ lolilo - This unexpected predator catches her victim by her sharp vocabs. However, for those who are good to her, she will just be a gentle cat. This uncommon gal has the unfair share of decency for Peter all the time but Peter's thick skin will paralyse her words. She, as usual, is a top scorer behind Nooi Hoay, Patrick and 57 others. A character who matches her the most is Evelyn in The Mummy Returns IMO.

e) Patrick Leong Tian Weng @ apek(Peter's unworthy invention) - He is Peter's partner-in-crime and both of them will stir an 10.5 Richter earthquake in the KST chatroom anytime. Unlike his brother, this guy is super friendly and he shares another quality with Yin Ling - sharp vocabs anytime. A strong asset for the country and will produce his best-selling memoirs in 50 years of less. A character who matches him the most is Oliver Wood in Harry Potter IMO.

f) Ang Nooi Hoay @ eggy @ sophisticatedsoul - She is a very intriguing character, but that's what makes her special. She can shock you anytime with her out-of-the-world statements. By the way, she is ranked fourth in the country and her powers are not to be undermined. Her wordless nick in MSN shows no introduction for this prominent figure in the future. A character who matches her the most is Professor McGonagall in Harry Potter IMO.

g) Lai Kee Huong @ lkh1986 @ ok_huge_alien - He is quick on his trigger everytime he chatted in MSN. His quick replies will enlighten you more on his typing speed. This guy is also a professional in trivia and perhaps he's the man Malaysia is looking for in Who Wants To Be A Millionaire? He is someone who tries real hard in doing every single thing on Earth while maintaining his kind character. A character who matches him the most is Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter IMO.

h) Daphne Chong @ deaf-knee - She is still an unknown character to me and it will be untrue if I am to comment about her here. All I know is her shimmering 10A1s.

This is what that makes KST special. Digest it fellas!

My War

War of Scholarship

4 December 1993
Starting of preparation for the first battle against UPSR.

September 1999
Battle against UPSR in SK Saint Thomas.

17 November 1999
End of UPSR Battle – Victory.

4 January 2000
Starting of preparation for the next battle, against PMR.

14-17 October 2002
Battle against PMR in SMK Sultan Abu Bakar.

30 December 2002
End of PMR battle – Victory.

8 January 2003
Starting of preparation for the next battle, against SPM.
Primary objective received – to score well in SPM.

6 September – 28 September 2004
Preliminary battle against SPM in SMK Sultan Abu Bakar.

8 October 2004
End of preliminary battle against SPM – 9A1s, 2A2s.

14 October 2004
Application for Matriculation Programme.

c. 18 October 2004
Application for Petronas Scholarship.

4 November – 2 December 2004
Battle against SPM in SMK Sultan Abu Bakar.
Second objective received – to get a scholarship.

20 November 2004
Notification to go for Petronas Educamp 2004.

6-8 December 2004
Battle against Petronas in Tronoh, Perak.

23 December 2004
Application for the Malaysia National Reinsurance Berhad (MNRB) Scholarship.

30 December 2004
Battle against Petronas – Initial defeat.

17 January 2005
Battle against MNRB – Defeat.

15 February 2005
Date of entry to ReCom.

10 March 2005
Reinforcements had arrived – SPM Results (8A1s, 3A2s).
Primary objective achieved.

14 March 2005
Application for ASEAN scholarship.

15 March 2005
Application for Bank Negara Malaysia(BNM) scholarship.
Application for The Star Education Fund.

21 March 2005
Re-Application for Petronas Scholarship.

22 March 2005
Battle against BNM scholarship – Defeat.

23 March 2005
Application for JPA Scholarship.

24 March 2005
Application for Securities Commission (SC) scholarship.

25 March 2005
Notification to go for the SC scholarship first interview.

27 March 2005
First battle against SC scholarship in SC Headquarters, KL.

29 March 2005
First battle against SC scholarship – Victory.

1 April 2005
Battle against The Star Education Fund – Defeat.

4-6 April 2005
Second battle against SC scholarship in SC Headquarters, KL.

9 April 2005
Battle against ASEAN scholarship in Bukit Kiara, KL.

11 April 2005
Battle against Matriculation Programme – Defeat.

14 April 2005
Battle against JPA scholarship – Initial failure.
Counter attack launched towards JPA.

19 April 2005
Battle against JPA scholarship – Ultimate failure.
Troops were depleted and retreated back to the main base.

26-30 April 2005
The Poetic Period.

5 May 2005
Battle against ASEAN scholarship – Defeat.
Strength level is diminishing fast.
I am at the brink of defeat.

6 May 2005
Reinforcements had arrived - Form 6, SMK Sultan Abu Bakar.

10 May 2005
Battle against SC scholarship – Defeat.
Only a few emaciated troops were left alive in the almost deadly battlefield.

11 May 2005
A call to surrender from mother by getting ALL the Form 6 things ready.
Call to surrender turned down.

12 May 2005
By the few remaining troops, Petronas was defeated.
Petronas scholarship was captured by 5:30pm.
Second objective achieved.
MISSION ACCOMPLISHED.

Running Out Of Fuel...

Nah, not fuel...it's idea actually.

I've totally run out of ideas to blog. Inspirations usually come to me before I doze off to sleep at night. As I lie down on my bed, all kinds of thoughts would fill me mind. I would suddenly be reminded of something I forgot to tell so-and-so. I would then be reminded of tasks I forgot to carry out. Later, I would find myself lost in a pool of ideas to blog about. Why is that so? Perhaps the time I lie down flat on my back is the moment sufficient oxygenated blood flows into my brain, enabling me to think more clearly.

But then, as we all know, the bed is the most enticing comfort zone of all. And who would care to get up to jot down those ideas? Thus I just let the ideas, sometimes real wonderful ones, fade and evaporise into fine mist as I slip into unconsciousness while the sub-conscious mind takes over the job of the conscious portion.

Dreams then take control of me and reveal the real self. Sometimes it is just unbelievable to see myself acting mad in my dreams. Is that really my true self? I wonder.

Okay, back to the point of this post. I actually plan to dedicate this to our virtual friendship. Virtual not as in not-real, but friendship established via the internet.

As Albert said, we will all be facing our very first test, the pre-university phase. Hope everyone of us can pass the test with flying colours (phrases learnt in school being dug out for use).

As for ReCom, obviously, the activities have been dwindling in these few days due to the fact that school and matriculation are starting soon. A ReCom member once stated that this is the common trend every year. ReCom is most active during the time of scholarships application. And it goes back to rest for about half a year before being waken up by a whole new batch of scholarships seekers the following year.

I was skeptical to this at first. But now I can see the harsh truth for myself.

-The End-

A Jot By A Sot

not the initial post...

and so everyone left for bed... I took out the fifth Harry Potter book that I was reading las nite in Alor Setar, tried to write wat I planned to initially... And I didn't... I wanted to write bout some similarities(pointless post) between myself and Harry that I noticed while reading las nite(haven read it for about two years now) but somehow something weighs more heavily on my mind. The fact that matrics begins tomolo n STPM starts schooling the day after that. I've decided not to go for STPM schooling, not in Sin Min, not in Ibrahim, not in Khir Johari, not in Keat Hwa, not in Jit Sin, not in IBM, not in Chung Ling Butterworth(boy, i really skip about on which school to transfer to =P). N I did not get matrics. N all thats left for me to do now is wait, for JPA to pick me, to give me an easier life...

This waiting however will not be the same without my usual MSN chat members, u guys... For everyone's leaving for school, n I'm left behind, with my lousy results n uncertain future. There will be no crazy peter showing us his nose digging icon, no eggy nudging me almost instantly after she types, SNO... , no lkh telling us to play trivia, no patrick giving us the tantrum throwing kid emoticon, no elaine showing us her shao nian juan ji, no daphne(she's not around for a while d, tho), still no daphne to bounce about in the chat room with me about whos cute n whos not... no everyone everynite on MSN anymore... I know this sounds dramatically sentimental but how often will all of us online with school work at hand? Well, luckily there's still lolilo, who happens to live in my town n now knows where I live, well, she's not going to form 6 too, haha... n of course our albert with his Petronas scholarship, waiting for confirmation on where he's heading next...

ok, suddenly, i forgot the point of my post. Oh yea, there's no point. Just that I feel like typing some melancholy goodbye speech. But seems like I've been focussing on what I'll be missing with u guys gone. OKOK

Peter- will miss his nightly calzone from the nearby pizza hut n have to endure with aerobics in the mornings instead

Eggy- will miss me at physics tuition n might be sitting in front on her own if her frenz still won move to the front rows

lkh- will miss his FRIENDS DVDs and Donald Trumps' next Apprentice season

Patrick- will miss his big bros n sistas on MSN and might even lose to me in Minesweeper nex time, hehe

Elaine- will not be able to showcase her self taken head shots on MSN anymore and might start taking tuitions? =P

Daphne- Will miss her AS with NS coming to an end and will probly meet someone hotter soon

well, albert, me n lolilo wil still be online, hopefully. So guys, don forget us...

YOU PEEPS GO N RULE THEM ALL, yaa....hehe

Thats my college logo , sobs :(............... 2 days more , any words of encouragement/console ?

The Exodus Poem

Based on KST member's overwhelming support, I have completed the sequel for The Exodus Poem. This is the complete poem :

THE EXODUS POEM

I ( For weaker students)
I work like mad,
And study my subjects,
But look what I had,
Not all my effort reflects.

The world is harsh,
Now that I know,
Everyone's in a rush,
No one must stay slow.

I got something good,
But it is never enough,
So I was left to brood,
Into depression's craft.

The winner takes it all,
The losers standing small,
The nation don't recall,
There are others trapped in this all.

As I was down,
My spirit was broken,
God came around,
And tell me this is relevant.

For victory is after loss,
No one can deny,
I should not be cross,
Or God's blessing will fly.

I received a mission,
Something burning strong,
To attack with provision,
So that I won't go wrong.

Now it's getting hard,
To accept the brutal truth,
But I have to be smart,
To show them the proof.

I have to stay low,
Although I do not want to do so,
However, as the future is unfold,
All blessings I will know.

II (For students like me, not good, not bad)

Many are worse than me,
They are not SPM-inclined,
But the future is not gloomy,
Because hope shall they find.

When I got my results,
8A1 and 3A2,
No one insults,
Because to them it’s good.

I was happy beyond description,
Treating all my friends happily,
But I know not the competition,
And applied around innocently.

Cleverer students just relax,
Weaker students just prepare,
I did not accept the facts,
And applied here and there.

The time comes for results,
I failed one by one,
But my cries and shouts,
Seem to reach no one.

Therefore be wise my friends,
Be aware of the battlefield,
Do something that makes sense,
And happiness you will yield.

III (For great students)

I salute your excellence,
Your greatness in studies,
But do not worship the presents,
Or the appealing publicities.

Look into the future,
And prepare with your weapon,
It will be full of adventure,
As anything can happen.

You may end up in INTEC,
Or any other colleges,
But what’s important is the fact,
It promises endless challenges!

You know better than me,
What you will face,
But I hope you can see,
And be merciful in the race.

For achievements wear off fast,
But good deeds last long,
Therefore we have to blast,
Whatever that is wrong.

I wish you all the best,
As you begin this journey,
If you can’t beat the rest,
Just remind yourself about me!

IV (Epilogue)

I am not writing this,
Because I am diffident,
I am writing this,
Because I am different.

Composed by Albert Khor (May 11 2005, 2:58pm)

PS : I have already sent a copy through e-mail to ReMag coordinator.

Preparing for Form 6

If all Form 5 leavers will write a blog about "Future Plans", more than 1.2 million posts will revolve around my topic-Form 6.

For Form 6, I will hit 5 subjects, PA-Maths T-Physics-Chemistry-Economy. Of course, I will slog it out, really slog it out this time to score 5As. I will stop at no junctions or waypoints. In fact, I wanna aim for 90+ in every exam, starting from the first one. My main mission is very simple : to make up for what I have lost and what I have received.

I initially thought that 8A1s, ok lar....straight As also...Now I know the harsh truth. They are NOTHING. Although I said that I will study for knowledge, I cant help but see that I need money to further my studies, therefore needing scholarship, publicity and excellence.

The poem was moved to another post because the sequel is complete.

PS: Patrick, so you know Wun Min(caramel_nut)? How do you know it's her? She wearing a T-shirt with a big picture of a caramel nut? Or is it predestined?

F6, my choice

Since I'd got my SPM result, many people asked me, what's your next plan? Study at college? Your result is so good whoa, do you apply any scholarship huh?However, my result is not that good, I know if I go to apply those scholarships, I wouldn't have any chance, and it's just wasting my money and time, I lazy to go for interview too as I know I am weak in oral speaking, haiz...
Many people think I get a good result, but... I am just lucky. I know what's my standard, I was too lazy. "wah... you lazy and just lucky, can get such a good result ah? aiyo.. then it's so unfair.." I know many of them who get worse result than me would say like this, since some of them are really hardworking people, but still can't get better result. As I always said, exam always not only depends on your knowledge, but also your luck. I always good luck in exam. However, the average result of the whole country was quite low, and that helped me to get good result,[no offense to those get bad one], it's the second aspect. I can tell you, maybe I just understand about half of the syllabus of form 4 and form 5, do you believe it? lol... incredible huh? This is so called a clever student !
aiks... forget it, since I am still blur blur now, blur about what? I am so confused about my future, what is the job I like? Be a doctor? No way... I scared leh... erm... be a lawyer? No No... my oral speaking is so weak, I hate history! Be a... erm.. teacher? maybe yes, maybe no... Be a accountant? Definitely no... I don't study account leh... Be a.... ??? aiya.. really don't know lar... I just know I am interested in biology, science lor.. but not physics lar.. so.. that means? That doesn't bring any suggestions, so... study form 6 lor... [p.s: f6 = form 6]
If I applied for college using my SPM result, I can study without paying any fees, at first I mean, until if I failed to reach the target in the coming exam then I have to pay. But...so how? I don't even know what I want, how to do a specific course? So, there is the only way for me, form 6. I didn't apply for the matriculation too, no mood to do that study, lol.
So, I will take biology + chemistry and another two compulsory subjects in STPM coming soon next year. oh yea, next Tuesday start my orientation for form 6 lor, have to start my study engine ler =p this time definitely will not be like my form 5 lor, I will ensure myself to understand all the topics ;)

A little prayer

Today I failed my driving test, again. Specifically, I failed to execute a three point turn without making more than 3 'olahgerak'(basically, I turned my steering more than 3 times from left to right n right to left, brrrrr) It was raining very hard and I fell sick after running around in the rain. It is the second time that I had failed my driving test. It is depressing.

Reasons for my depression:
1. My driving instructor reminds me strikingly of a person I hate vengefully. Thus, I refuse to take anymore lessons from him despite the fact that I am still a lousy driver.

2. I think 99% of driving instructors are like my driving instructor, hot-tempered. Hence, I refuse to take any lessons from any other instructors.

3. Everyone's too busy to pick me up from the driving school after my lessons/driving test. And the agent would not send me home.

4. There is always a lot of people in the driving test centre. I am the least confident person I know of and I hate crowds. They scare me.

5. Without a driving license, I am stuck at home and getting fatter each day in front of my computer. I desperately want to lose weight but I love food passionately.

6. Even if I do get a license, there is no cars for me to drive.

7. I am feverish at the moment.

8. It is a bugs night. The little flying ants are swarming me and the computer screen instead of the pendafluor light outside. I am itching like hell.

Ok. I also would like to pray at the moment. I do not have a god. But I would like to state my willingness to give up the pleasure of eating meat if Petronas gives me a scholarship this Thursday.

Trip to KL

On 7 May 2005, my family and I went to KL for the MIT talk in Hotel Equatorial.

The talk is mainly to give pointers to those who want to apply to MIT.
There, I met caramel_nut, a ReCommer too. She was really nice, and currently pursuing A-levels in Taylors College.

Mm, then I went to 1 Utama to loiter around. That freaking shopping mall is so freaking large.
My legs were all aching when I returned to my relative's condominium to call it a day.

The next day, I went to Mid Valley Megamall.

Both shopping malls organised fashion shows, in conjunction with the KL Fashion Week. Quite interesting, though!

Oh yea, I didn't take a picture with caramel_nut because my brother left the camera in the car that day =(.

Unveiling He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named...Voldemort!

Encik Mata-gila..Mad-Eye Moody... constant vigilance !

Mr Viktor Krum...