Ever heard of holograms? They are sometimes known as cheating device. Why? It's because you think the obstacle is not there and you walk towards it, just to be hit by the obstacle. It's also sometimes called invisible deterrent. Why? You can't see it but something is stopping you from advancing further....something you can't see with your naked eyes. But the most suitable name for it is virtual barrier. Why? It's because you can go further but with very great difficulties and it's normally invisible.
I have a lot of friends from Taylor's and why not? I have ReComers here and one friend leads me to another. I know many people here as well. However, that's always the limit - knowing and identifying. I have not advance any further and I wondered why. After some serious thinking and analysis, I finally got my answer and the answer was not obtained through formulas and equations ( I am not that eccentric yet). Here's the answer :
I am waiting for my bus in front of college yesterday. I looked around me (I am alone, as usual)...a small group of JPA Chinese boys are talking to each other and one of the boys is also talking to a Malay girl (JPA scholar). All of them are studying SAM. Then, I saw a group of JPA ICPU students talking to each other. Two are Chinese and most others are Malay. A small of Petronas scholars studying ICPU are also talking to each other. The group is a mixture of guys and girls.
Another independent event:
I am in the class waiting for Mathematics teacher to come. The class was divided as usual. Christine and Dian were sitting together. Mike, Eugene sat together. Dave, Siew Kiat and Vivek sat together. Akram was chatting with Mike and Eugene. Khashafiq and Salman and Rahim sat together. Salaamin, Fakhruddin and Hamedullah sat together. Maryam and Nadya sat together. Inseparable pair, Sook Mei and Xiao Hong sat together. Yuk Chang and Shu Hao will always sit together. These pairs in class, unless under very rare occasions, will always stay together, creating blocs in class. Oh yeah, what about me? I will be alone, striking conversations occasionally with some of them.
Next independent event :
I am in my scholarship friends' apartment. All seven of them are Malays and all of them live together. When I went there, rather than expecting any welcome, I will obtain nothing, as though no one has walked into the apartment. However, one of them is very friendly though. ONE....out of seven.
Last independent event :
I know a Chinese guy here....an IC-Chinese guy. Why I call him IC-Chinese guy? Because he's only Chinese in his IC. He's from KYS and he's behaving like a classic Malay who stayed in a hostel for 5 years. His very very close bond with all the Malay scholars is not a problem (in fact, it's good...because of racial integration), but his action is the complete reverse against Chinese or Indian scholars (no Indian btw.) My friend and I (Chinese) often received cold stares from him, as if we did whack him before. I have never meet such people before. My friend even make a joke (just a joke) : IF he becomes the MCA president, even Yap Ah Loy will rise up to oppose him! I daresay he gives me a very bad impression of KYS....shame on him.
Ok, after all the events (true events), what is my conclusion? The first problem is about scholarship. Scholars from the same scholarship agencies often flock together (observe first example). They don't tend to know people from other scholarship agencies. However, for cases such as us (MISC scholars and also Telekom scholars), our group is so small that we need to interact with others.
Some made it through the first obstacle and some don't(including me). Why? The second reason is race. In this 21st century, race is still a separator. Scholars of the same race tend to make cliques. With all these tight cliques around, how can I make close friends here? Even within my own ring of 12 MISC scholars, the clique was seen. Malay guys mix with Malay guys. Chinese girls mix with Chinese girls. Malay girls mix with Malay girls. Even between Chinese, Chinese-speaking Chinese mix with Chinese speaking Chinese. English speaking Chinese mix with English speaking Chinese. What kind of culture is this?
The problem is not with the government....the problem is not with the education system...the problem is not with the teachers....the problem is with ourselves! Our mindset and vision is tuned so that we will focus on our "same kind" of people only. Once we don't change, we will no longer just see trading blocs, but people of different religions will live in different parts of the world and take up different jobs, just like the Colonialism era.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Thursday, October 20, 2005
may HER soul rest in peace
The Prime Minister's wife Datin Seri Endon Mahmood died at 7.55 am today at the Prime Minister's official residence in Putrajaya after fighting a long battle with cancer.Endon, 64, breathed her last about 18 days after returning from undergoing a treatment for breast cancer in Los Angeles, United States. -- The Star
sigh... what a shocked + sadden news to me ......
Few days ago, I read in newspaper stated that her health is getting better, after returning form US, for the celebration of Hari Raya Puasa...
I wonder, if she didn't come back to Malaysia and stayed at US in hospital, would she die?
suddenly... hard to describe my mood now... ah...
I was listening to radio right after I reached home (back from school, it was a boring school day today also, just had 3 periods of chemistry and none of the others..), and I found it weird that there were only music... midi... there was no any songs............
then, I was reading the forum, Recom... and saw a thread named "passing away of Datin Seri Endon"...while listening to the sadden music, I was reading the news...
so... at that moment... feeling want to cry... ah..... just a sudden moment
this is such a big loss to our dear Prime Minister, try to imagine, what's the feeling of losing the dearest companion... who had been by your side for such a long time, shared your happiness and sadness... up and downs...
Malaysians, we've lost a gread lady... who possesses good attitudes and a kind heart
sigh... what a shocked + sadden news to me ......
Few days ago, I read in newspaper stated that her health is getting better, after returning form US, for the celebration of Hari Raya Puasa...
I wonder, if she didn't come back to Malaysia and stayed at US in hospital, would she die?
suddenly... hard to describe my mood now... ah...
I was listening to radio right after I reached home (back from school, it was a boring school day today also, just had 3 periods of chemistry and none of the others..), and I found it weird that there were only music... midi... there was no any songs............
then, I was reading the forum, Recom... and saw a thread named "passing away of Datin Seri Endon"...while listening to the sadden music, I was reading the news...
so... at that moment... feeling want to cry... ah..... just a sudden moment
this is such a big loss to our dear Prime Minister, try to imagine, what's the feeling of losing the dearest companion... who had been by your side for such a long time, shared your happiness and sadness... up and downs...
Malaysians, we've lost a gread lady... who possesses good attitudes and a kind heart
Saturday, October 15, 2005
I=)
It's great to see the Blog running again.
Looks like Albert has got the hang of things over there in Taylor's. He knows the place for the cheapest food, and from this blog, looks like he's starting to socialize with more girls. Good for him.
As for Lilo and Sno........I guess they're doing fine in INTEC. Lilo has got one outgoing gang. When I visited her in INTEC, I joined her gang in karaoke-ing, loitering around Sungei Wang Plaza, walking all the way from Bintang Walk to Petaling Street, and then walking to Pudu Raya.
It's like one cross-country walk. Sno, on the other hand, won the first prize in a German Sketch competition. My congratulations to her. She must've put in a lot of effort in that sketch.
As for Peter, he bragged to me that day, saying that he got a 100 marks in his Math exam. In addition, he reinforced it by saying that ONLY 3 people got that. O_o.
Elaine and Kee Huong......I get occasional SMSes from Kee Huong, and I get updates about Elaine through this blog, since she's still in the comfort of her home, hehe.
Daphne........Got news from her brother, who studies at the same college as me. He said, "She's fine."
Me?????? How bout me??
Alright, I've adapted myself to the life here. The food, the tight schedule, the boredom (sometimes), the society, as well as the competitiveness.
It's so difficult to be at the top of the class, although I am occasionally. From all the tests I've done, I can only remember one Math paper in which I got the highest score. 50/60.
Looks like I'll have to buck up, and pull up my socks.
I've discovered ways to entertain me when I'm bored. Firstly, I'll download movies like Desperate Housewives, Nip/Tuck, and Smallville from the internet, and fresh new music as well as podcasts from iTunes. Podcasts are actually radio-like programmes which you can listen to.
I have to admit that those podcasts can significantly raise a person's listening skills, as Americans speak rather quickly in radio shows.
Looks like Albert has got the hang of things over there in Taylor's. He knows the place for the cheapest food, and from this blog, looks like he's starting to socialize with more girls. Good for him.
As for Lilo and Sno........I guess they're doing fine in INTEC. Lilo has got one outgoing gang. When I visited her in INTEC, I joined her gang in karaoke-ing, loitering around Sungei Wang Plaza, walking all the way from Bintang Walk to Petaling Street, and then walking to Pudu Raya.
It's like one cross-country walk. Sno, on the other hand, won the first prize in a German Sketch competition. My congratulations to her. She must've put in a lot of effort in that sketch.
As for Peter, he bragged to me that day, saying that he got a 100 marks in his Math exam. In addition, he reinforced it by saying that ONLY 3 people got that. O_o.
Elaine and Kee Huong......I get occasional SMSes from Kee Huong, and I get updates about Elaine through this blog, since she's still in the comfort of her home, hehe.
Daphne........Got news from her brother, who studies at the same college as me. He said, "She's fine."
Me?????? How bout me??
Alright, I've adapted myself to the life here. The food, the tight schedule, the boredom (sometimes), the society, as well as the competitiveness.
It's so difficult to be at the top of the class, although I am occasionally. From all the tests I've done, I can only remember one Math paper in which I got the highest score. 50/60.
Looks like I'll have to buck up, and pull up my socks.
I've discovered ways to entertain me when I'm bored. Firstly, I'll download movies like Desperate Housewives, Nip/Tuck, and Smallville from the internet, and fresh new music as well as podcasts from iTunes. Podcasts are actually radio-like programmes which you can listen to.
I have to admit that those podcasts can significantly raise a person's listening skills, as Americans speak rather quickly in radio shows.
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Finally....
Finally....the atmosphere is back. Actually I am not THAT busy and distressed. I, in turn has a lot of free time over here (NOT to imply that my studies are sooo good)...but just that the course here is not so hectic...and there's a lot of activities here to unwind at the end of the day...our ECA officers are excellent!! They are very friendly and approachable. I hang out there EVERYday until I am already a regular...sometimes I help them to answer phone calls as well...I hope that you guys/gals found your own entertainment there....clean ones of course...
Since I come to Taylors, ppl around me begin to exert "love pressure"....what I mean is that ppl begins to associate me with GIRLS after GIRLS....just because I am a "little bit" close with them...I am not a romeo, nor a Mr. Cool, nor a buaya!! Lately, after the BRATs camp, one girl from there begin to exchange emails with me...we email each other everyday to talk abt anything under the sun...but one day, my friend saw that and he spread the news around...now once my class members saw me, i will expect some "funny remarks" from them...oh yes, another bad news for elaine....DUNNO how this can happen, but somehow someone here knows abt our KST gang and saw our picture and PETER'S remarks!! So, they begin to think that....u know...ppl begin to think that I have 2,3 gals, etc.....if there's a reason to be distressed, this is the one reason...
Studies are fine...like I say in my post three months ago, I want to put myself within the top three of the class. When I first come here, all the class members give me a very good impression until I think that I will be having a hard time. However, eventual exams proved me wrong. Apparently, I still manage to keep myself on the top 3 level. Ok la, since Daphne is so nice for putting her scores, I wil do the same thing (/100 unless stated):
Format : (Test Number)(Marks)(Position in class)
Thinking Skills : (1)(15/16)(1), (2)(13/16)(3), (3)(16/18)(1), (4)(12/18)(3)
Maths : (1)(99)(1), (2)(95)(3), (3)(85)(2)
Physics : (1)(22/30)(2)
Chemistry : (1)(79)(3)
Economics : (1)(24/30)(2), (2)(17/20)(1), (3)(16/20)(1)
That's why I myself don't go online very often. It's not easy at all to maintain that streak...the competition is great because it's a scholars' class. Therefore, I must always buckle up all the time.
Hey, I have a perfect time for meeting:
Date : 10 December 2005
Time : Anytime between morning and afternoon, I don't mind
Venue : Berjaya Times Square
Game? Reply quick! And also, if you guys/gals are free during Raya Break, let's relive that KST pasar again...it will be a perfect chance to do that. See you all!
Since I come to Taylors, ppl around me begin to exert "love pressure"....what I mean is that ppl begins to associate me with GIRLS after GIRLS....just because I am a "little bit" close with them...I am not a romeo, nor a Mr. Cool, nor a buaya!! Lately, after the BRATs camp, one girl from there begin to exchange emails with me...we email each other everyday to talk abt anything under the sun...but one day, my friend saw that and he spread the news around...now once my class members saw me, i will expect some "funny remarks" from them...oh yes, another bad news for elaine....DUNNO how this can happen, but somehow someone here knows abt our KST gang and saw our picture and PETER'S remarks!! So, they begin to think that....u know...ppl begin to think that I have 2,3 gals, etc.....if there's a reason to be distressed, this is the one reason...
Studies are fine...like I say in my post three months ago, I want to put myself within the top three of the class. When I first come here, all the class members give me a very good impression until I think that I will be having a hard time. However, eventual exams proved me wrong. Apparently, I still manage to keep myself on the top 3 level. Ok la, since Daphne is so nice for putting her scores, I wil do the same thing (/100 unless stated):
Format : (Test Number)(Marks)(Position in class)
Thinking Skills : (1)(15/16)(1), (2)(13/16)(3), (3)(16/18)(1), (4)(12/18)(3)
Maths : (1)(99)(1), (2)(95)(3), (3)(85)(2)
Physics : (1)(22/30)(2)
Chemistry : (1)(79)(3)
Economics : (1)(24/30)(2), (2)(17/20)(1), (3)(16/20)(1)
That's why I myself don't go online very often. It's not easy at all to maintain that streak...the competition is great because it's a scholars' class. Therefore, I must always buckle up all the time.
Hey, I have a perfect time for meeting:
Date : 10 December 2005
Time : Anytime between morning and afternoon, I don't mind
Venue : Berjaya Times Square
Game? Reply quick! And also, if you guys/gals are free during Raya Break, let's relive that KST pasar again...it will be a perfect chance to do that. See you all!
hou loi mou kin ah!
wah I damn long never update d k. wanna know what I got for maths ahh. maths quiz 1 41/53, maths topic test 1 41/70 and maths quiz 2 41/43. next wednesday maths topic test 2 lorr. so now you understand why I never update lorr. ok bye :P
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
the end of my final exam
yeah.. finished..
overall... I have a habit during exam.. since last 2 years, that is sleeping during exam!eh.. of course the sleeping I mean is after finish answering the papers ~
especially for objective papers, always I just use half of the time given, sometimes even just use quarter of the time!
I did this during last year's SPM also =p
teachers sure ask us to use the time to check.... hmm... I hate to check the papers actually.. but in fact I've checked the papers before I sleep, and I don't like to check few times... lazy ~
but mostly for writing papers or paper 2 of science subjects or Math... surely no time for me to take rest ler.. have to keep writing ...
Math... there are only 7 people pass... if including me
over 24... haha.. not even 1/3 of the class pass...
the papers were given back to us today, and.. the exact marks I got was 39.. so my dear teacher added one more mark to me and let me be one of the "pass member"
*sigh*
our dear teacher was really sad of my class' attitude towards math...
[but I think.. I have good attitude towards math... am I ? hmmmm... just that.. I've been too careless + nervous + managed time badly.., ya.. I'm not giving excuse! I did all the exercises given by teacher!]
[hmm.. so.. can I still tell others that I've never failed before? =.="]
ah... I've been talking about this topic for few days..
after exam... can't be too relax also... =.="I
still got a lot of homework to be completed! oh my... haizzz
mostly are of biology project ! @@
and also society's plans, activities... etc........
overall... I have a habit during exam.. since last 2 years, that is sleeping during exam!eh.. of course the sleeping I mean is after finish answering the papers ~
especially for objective papers, always I just use half of the time given, sometimes even just use quarter of the time!
I did this during last year's SPM also =p
teachers sure ask us to use the time to check.... hmm... I hate to check the papers actually.. but in fact I've checked the papers before I sleep, and I don't like to check few times... lazy ~
but mostly for writing papers or paper 2 of science subjects or Math... surely no time for me to take rest ler.. have to keep writing ...
Math... there are only 7 people pass... if including me
over 24... haha.. not even 1/3 of the class pass...
the papers were given back to us today, and.. the exact marks I got was 39.. so my dear teacher added one more mark to me and let me be one of the "pass member"
*sigh*
our dear teacher was really sad of my class' attitude towards math...
[but I think.. I have good attitude towards math... am I ? hmmmm... just that.. I've been too careless + nervous + managed time badly.., ya.. I'm not giving excuse! I did all the exercises given by teacher!]
[hmm.. so.. can I still tell others that I've never failed before? =.="]
ah... I've been talking about this topic for few days..
after exam... can't be too relax also... =.="I
still got a lot of homework to be completed! oh my... haizzz
mostly are of biology project ! @@
and also society's plans, activities... etc........
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Taking a breath in a marathon
Well, the title says it all, rite? My schedule is BUSY but I can still find time to report myself here. No one ever sends anything here anymore...it's such a sad situation...but everyone has their hectic life to handle. Just stopping by here since I have the time...
Taylor's is not a easy place. Everyone here is quite brainy and if you don't pay attention, you will be blown away. I just got the second highest in Thinking Skills test today...till now, I am still looking good...but tomorrow there's an Economics Test...and next week, Maths Test and Chemistry test.....tests and tests...
My scrabble competition is up this Saturday....it wil provide me with great challenges...hope that i can walk away with something...
Still remember the 5-way-test that I posted here abt 4 months ago? I think we are STILL doing fine, but we are drifting away...
Ok, finish crapping....
Taylor's is not a easy place. Everyone here is quite brainy and if you don't pay attention, you will be blown away. I just got the second highest in Thinking Skills test today...till now, I am still looking good...but tomorrow there's an Economics Test...and next week, Maths Test and Chemistry test.....tests and tests...
My scrabble competition is up this Saturday....it wil provide me with great challenges...hope that i can walk away with something...
Still remember the 5-way-test that I posted here abt 4 months ago? I think we are STILL doing fine, but we are drifting away...
Ok, finish crapping....
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